She always understands

Dreamt of Ma last night. Don’t really remember much about the dream. Her face was all I could revoke and conjure up. Woke up with this heaviness in my heart, this familiar density and sickening weight. After her death I would often wrap myself up with her clothes and try to breathe in long andContinue reading “She always understands”

Signs

”We all think we’re going to be great. And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But, sometimes, our expectations sell us short. Sometimes, the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady…Continue reading “Signs”

I am my subject, shall remain..

      There’s a moment right before you wake up……It’s a moment of absolute nothingness, completely white and opaque. It lasts for a fraction of a second but you sometimes wish you could live in that second forever. It’s an instant devoid of feeling, the only occasion when you can actually stop time inContinue reading “I am my subject, shall remain..”

I want to feel it all…

 My boy turns 16 today and as i fly away inside my head to a place that sits on the border of reality a quiet storm rises in my chest. I pause. I inhale. I feel a slight twinge of pain. He is growing up, growing up fast. It’s not been easy, i was barelyContinue reading “I want to feel it all…”

Who am i ?

  Yesterday evening. I was trying on Vipassana meditation, the 7:00p.m. class at a Buddhist meditation. And after a few sessions the instructor asked how it was going for me. “You know, my mind feels emptier, and I suppose that’s good, because you say it is. But . . .”  I said sheepishly, not quiteContinue reading “Who am i ?”

Beat it!!

Frankly, I don’t like risky moves, in yoga or life. My heart pounds. My underarms get sticky. I rationalize, expounding on the benefits of the earthbound. Why? It’s safer. It pays well. It doesn’t take too much time. That’s what I’ve been telling God when He calls me to live a fuller, riskier life. It’sContinue reading “Beat it!!”

Gratitude!

November, monday morning! I woke up feeling clueless, introverted and extroverted in equal measure. The weekend consisted of meeting some of my long-time favorite cousins and friends ( david, mili, pori ), meeting few fabulous new-to-me faces, bit of public speaking and the natural anxiety that begets, and plenty of general socialization and high –Continue reading “Gratitude!”

Follow your heart..

Hello friends! A humongous thanks to all the warm wishes and comments on yesterdays post. It’s little funny,actually sweet…ummm funny and sweet because it took me like an hour and half to crank out those little paragraphs… that’s how uninspired and verbally constipated I’ve been feeling lately, when it comes to blogging and writing asContinue reading “Follow your heart..”

Thank you!

Hi there! Long time huh! Warning to all readers (or some of the readers … or readers who are picky at least), this post is sure to be full of errors, both spelling and grammatical. Firstly because I’m typing on my iPad using PAGES and for some reason there is no autocorrect. Or if thereContinue reading “Thank you!”